A few weeks ago, I was lying stretched out on my couch working on my blog and I had a thought or more like a realization. I am following a dream of mine. I knew I had to make this one of my next posts!
The thought came to me as I was laughing at my crazy husband yelling at the football game in excitement and my daughter laughing with her friends during her back to school sleepover. (yes, it is a thing in our house…thinking it just may be the beginning of a new tradition for her and her friends) But, the room all of sudden got quiet. The TV transitioned to a commercial and the girls went upstairs to get ready for bed. In that 2 minutes of silence, I felt so excited!! My family is happy and so.am.I.! Like I said in my About Me page, this year has been a little rough for me. I have been happy but to be honest it was not long-lasting if that makes sense. Do not get me wrong, I love my life. Just something is now missing and it has been hard to get past it. I have also been struggling to do things for myself for fear that I was being selfish. I am a wife and a mother. I am supposed to take care of everyone and everything. But lately, with the life changes that have occurred, I am realizing that life is actually short and unexpected. You hear it all the time, but you do not really see the truth to it until it hits close to home.
I am now toying with the idea of pursuing a few dreams of mine, however, I feel guilty from time to time. I do not want my decision to affect my family and our way of life. We do not have everything on our wish list, but we have enough and life is good. I go back and forth all the time. With all of my hesitation, I have an amazing hubby to help me through. He is an AWESOME supporter and loves to cheer me on. He believes in happy wife happy life. 🙂 But I feel bad, because if I pursue my dreams, it may prevent him from obtaining his. And he says it’s ok because it is a man’s job to make sure his girls are happy. Love me some him! 😍 He is such a great man, that I want to make sure he doesn’t have regrets for not being where he wants to be in life because he put those dreams on hold for me. We have talked about my ventures so much in the past months and he basically said we can do both. We just have to remain a team with open communication. Isn’t he amazing?!?!?
So, in those 2 minutes of silence, I felt content. I was doing something that I loved and dreamed of doing. I am in control of it and it is all my own. I did not feel selfish at all. Blogging is what I want to do, along with some other things on my dream list. I have been praying for some guidance with my decision. I wanted to make sure I was on the right path and that tonight I felt it in every bone of my body! This new chapter in my life will require my faith and determination. However, I now know that this is something I should be doing and I can’t feel selfish about pursuing it. I cannot wait to see where this will take me!!
Have you ever felt hesitation on starting that new chapter in your life? Please comment below. I would love to hear all about it!